Pain, Let Me Introduce You to Jewelry
My quote today is from filmmaker Jamie Paolinetti, “Limitations live only in our minds. But if we use our imagination, our possibilities become limitless.”
It’s morning. I’m awake – again. I’ve slept a few hours in a semi-upright position because my body doesn’t lay flat. Nor will it bend to a full 90 degrees. I can’t get up yet, but I have to go to the bathroom. I take an oxycontin to help move some of the pain to the back burner. And I wait.
That’s how my day begins. And the rest of the day used to be more of the same. Now, instead of taking that second oxycontin in the afternoon, I turn on some music and move to my jewelry table. I can save that second oxycontin for the evening to help me sleep.
Now I focus on clay or beads – and BREATH. I close my eyes and let the materials fill my mind. Then I start picking up things. I pick up clay or gemstone beads, or whatever I want to create with that day and I begin putting them together. I don’t see a finished product. Not yet. They have to work their magic on me.
A pattern will arise that I usually don’t like at first. So I take it apart and start over. I’m not one who starts out with a clear idea of what I’m going to do. Not unless I’m creating something specifically for someone. Even then it’s difficult. Items seem to take on a life of their own. I’ll mix some colors of clay into the pasta machine until I find a corner I like, then I roll it out. I cut it into shapes or put it on a bracelet frame, or whatever, depending on what it wants to be. I’ll add embellishments like flowers or donuts, swirls or vines. Maybe add ribbon or beads, charms or gems. I’ll pull out lampwork beads and combine them with some moonstone and black agate beads. Rearrange them again.
Something is happening! A lovely piece of art is coming together before my eyes. And PAIN isn’t present here. This is my PLACE. My TIME. My EXISTENCE. Pain isn’t allowed here. As long as I stay within my space of creativity, I’m safe.
See the tenacity of Spirit revealed in my creations.