When I’m in pain I go to my jewelry table and play with beads and/or clay. Sometimes nothing comes of it. Sometimes I’m just too distracted to get distracted! I’ve told many that I meditate when I create jewelry, but I’ve never explained what I mean by that. I have to somehow get good with my pain. I don’t look at pain as something that is punishing me or “Why me after everything else?” I used to. But I realized that pain is a good thing to have around. Without it, I wouldn’t be aware that something was out of kilter in the first place. Pain also keeps me away from danger. It won’t let me keep my hand on that hot pan too long!
Not long ago my creativity was unleashed on the stage. I miss the stress of coming up with an audition song and monologue. Sitting in front of auditors and delivering my pieces, shaking in my wheelchair that feels suddenly so isolated.